Title: Latent muddle(1)
Pairing(s):Heehae(it will not clear),Kyuhae(one side),Leeteuk\Sora, Sungmin\? (one side), Siwon\? (will not occur),brokenfriendhip!Leeteuk\Siwon
Rating: start with Friendship and G,GP,P-13,P-15 and maybe NC-17 ;)
Summary:Leeteuk did not notice how he separated his life as two different worlds,soon it becomes difficult to choose, but one of these worlds do not belong to him, muddle or egotism?. Heechul merged with his image. Donghae could not understand what feelings feel to him.
Kyuhyun likes(or love?) Donghae and willing to neglect own feelings, satisfied with what he has, or pretends ?
Sungmin blames everyone and seeing the mistakes of others, but not his own. afraid to show his weakness, or he does not have it?What will happen when he accuses Kyuhyun and Kyuhyun find a reason to accuse him ?
Warnings: 1) It does not contain MYSTICS
it is closer to psychology, all what Leeteuk sees is his (my) fantasy and delusion during sleep (it marked in turquoise)
2)contains Donghae`s thought (they are marked in blue) but I write from third person
Note: is the first time I posted my writing,and I worry if it's awful.
I'm sorry English is not my native language, and not even a second, I know him only at that level, so there will probably be a lot of mistakes, sorry
I ELF FOREVER
suju`s dorm, kitchen.
-can I ask you?
-what? - the guy is not particularly interested, he just continuing eat
- I want to know since when, you decided that it's only your life?
-What? - the leader in disbelief staring at him - what do you mean .. Sungmin?
-why look at me as if I said something incredible, you know how to get out of every crap
The leader suddenly frowned at the younger, and begin to eat again, despite the smirk that coming from Sungmin
-you could pretend better, I'm disappointed in you
-I do not kno...
-you know-sungmin has done last sip from his glass of wine and rosing to leave the table.
leader smiling awkwardly but sungmin just laugh at him drunk, and standing at the door, leaning against the door`s jamb on the second and stopped laughing.
-Please, wake up, open your eyes and see that we`re still under your wing
Sungmin laugh again and turned the corner in his room. Leeteuk was a moment with a blank face looking at the place where Sungmin stood, shaking his head and then push the plate away.
-wake up? wings? pff drunken gibberish ... - He sigh heavily as he thought that it was not pleasant to hear even if it was drunken delirium, but now 2 am(night) and he can not think about it, he just sigh again and go to sleep.
-why here so light? - Leader shiver feeling a sunlight hits him in eyes. He get up rubbing his eyes and slowly pulled his hand to the place where it usually is a night table and alarm clock. Blindly groping in the air to find it, he snort with irritation
-what the hell? - Still does not wake up he leans back on the bed
-I want nothing - he bury his nose in a pillow, probably took 15 seconds as he has begin to sniff the pillow and sigh with pleasure. The pillow smelled so refreshingly frosty and mint.
Without opening his eyes, he pull a blanket over himself, it is also cold and minty .. about 10 seconds and
-WHERE I?-looking at him he was wearing a white shirt and white as snow pants and exactly in front of him emerged the mirror in which he sees himself lying dormant, the leader literally fly off the bed, tangling in sheets, he fell on back pulling on all the pillows and blankets. cursing all, he get out of .... rags? leader blinks in shock, he found himself on the field in the middle of dirty rags.leeteuk is puffing like a sudden fear gripped him.
Frantically crawls away from rags, he backing away, not looking at the road, he is soon facing with something hard, slowly turning around he saw a huge tree, thick and sharp as a thorn-branch sticking out in front of him.He looked at the fear of his body, if this thread not made a hole in him, but to the great surprise for him ... he is alive.He raise his head and wanted to touch the branch, thinking maybe it just seems like a sharp thorn, but ... there is no tree ...Only a wall, stone wall covered with moss.
- That ... that .... that ... is
The leader turns quickly to the voice, not even having time to get scared that might be in front of him after all these tricks. but there is nobody, just a huge shadow is coming to him. He closed his eyes in fear and could not move, there is nowhere to run, he knew that,in the back only wall.
-why do not you running?or do you want to save them? look, turn around and look! that world and this world, they are both yours, but what will you choose? Look, she's there, as you want.
he is not believe his eyes he listens to the voice from the shadows and obediently, barely controlling his numb body turns back, where was the wall.. now in front of him is again a field full of white flowers,not far away on a large stone by the sea, sit a girl in a white dress,he can hear as she sing a quiet melody, and inhale air from the water.
He nearly lost time when he looked at her, he smiled seeing how she smiles at the wind and on the water spray that gently beat into her face.
But a loud voice, Like a bank of ink flooded the beautiful picture, he angrily turns to him to grasp the shadow and ...
"Wake up!" - leader with full force press against the body, he clenching his eyes in preparation for a powerful attack but instead hear the sound of shattered crockery and whine
- Hurt .. hell ... it hurts, it hurts! you are crazy sleeper! my foot ... ... my hand.. my head!-leeteuk slowly opens eyes, looking around, it really is HIS bed, HIS room, HIS sheet, pillows, no smell of mint and cold, HIS pajamas and and that voice .... he also suspiciously slowly bent down and saw that on a carpet on HIS carpet, squirming HIS Donghae
-Donghae ...Donghae MY? - leader shut his mouth with hand in happiness and again raise his hands almost slapping.
- No, I'm a stranger! you queer! Look what you've done? you do not think that should at least apologize to me? - Donghae false angry, raised a spoonful of porridge from shattered plate, and threw it straight in the leader`s face.
-hey! - they both laugh
-in any case you should say "thank you Ryowook", he prepared it JUST for you before leaving at 5 am in...
leader still smiling happily, not really listening what he says, he still could not understand what happened, just knowing that it was a dream, but a strange, not normal, scary, at the same time so interesting .... it's the right word ? he is not know now
he asked, is not realized
- Why? - He asked himself about the dream but Donghae continue to talk with him
-why just for you? Today, you have the great day, so great that I'm almost ready to forgive you this blow my precious head on a hard-hard floor ! and even Kyuhyun will not make fun of you for a whole week! we are the best dongsaengs ? right hyung?
Leader has kept his eyes on him, but said nothing, so Donghae suspiciously leans toward him, waving hand in front of his face, but he just wrinkled his nose
-what she said - of whom she spoke?
-hmmmm...she?Who is she? -Donghae worry, he putting hand on Leeteuk`s forehead
-oh .. you have a fever ... lie ... lie down, I'm going to call an ambulance and i get a cold towel for you!-Donghae tried to put him in bed but he suddenly clutching hands on his wrist
-no, no, I'm good
-no, you're all on fire!
-I heard you crying and moaning at night, you had a nightmare?
leader looked anxiously at the boy as if HE has a problem.
-In any case, you have a fever, I will not let you go.
-seems to me that you said today a great day ... what day is it? - Leeteuk is not paying attention to Donghae and just ignoring his words.
-what .... are not hear? you need the help of the doctor-Donghae wanted to pull his hand from a solid grasp of leader but he holds more firmly
-tell me what day it is!?what i must choose?
- Do not scare me! What's this?- He wanted to draw his attention to their hands- it hurts!
-what day ???!! hell can you tell me why it is great!?- leader shook a guy in a panic - tell me!
Donghae with afraid look at him, nervously swallowing he just feel hot fingers around his wrists, which are already stiff
-Do not you remember? -from pausa Donghae asked calmly
-just tell Donghae-ah!
-You have a headache? Please calm down and let me call the doctor- Donghae tried to speak convincingly
-what are you stupid?? or what? !?
-what is here?! why are you yelling in 6 o`clock ! - Heechul burst into the room and stare in perplexity at the guys
-WHAT IS HELL?!
-Please call an ambulance!he have a fever!-Donghae almost crying
-what .. - Yesung looking into the room
-call an ambulance, quick!-Heechul order him and run to Donghae
-Leeteuk, calm down, you hear me? -Heechul slowly unclenched his hardly-stony hands of Donghae, so Donghae groaned with pain.Leeteuk starting pant and fell on the bed
hell-....- Heechul mind cursing -he faints
He helped Donghae get up and ran his fingers on his wrists
-mm ... no ... no ... not really - Donghae cheated, but smile at older
-he lost mind
-do not blame him, yesterday he came under rain and evidently ill
Heechul frowns -you always justifies all?
Donghae smiled confused-is it bad?
-very - Heechul said rough
Donghae lower his eyes
-once you need of forgiveness, you will wish have at least one person on your side ... so do you think it will never happen?-Donghae sit down beside the bed with leader and looking at him tenderly
Heechul just mocking
*I'll still be on your side, I'm sorry that I can not show it every time, because you're often talking about such nonsense* Donghae chuckled in mind
- the high word of a little boy, want to touch someone else's soul? let's not breathe originality,There is only one...
-only one space star, who do not care about feelings the mass of manikins what go under him- other guy appears in room
-Wow ... Sungmin .. do you understand? but did not think that you are such opinion of himself .. haha- Heechul almost purred
-read on your fan page, look there are still people with brains who are trying to open the eyes of the blind idiot who does not understand what worship
-you are not satisfied with your place? role of pink fool you chose himself - Donghae all this time silent and looked at them with open mouth only when Sungmin literally jumped up and grabbed Heechul by a collar , Donghae is not expect from himself shouted at them
*the biggest pain for man, to see how your most love people slowly destroy your world, not noticing it, simply because they don`t know that they are your world,world in which you do not have any rights never*
-If you want to know both of you morons! Leeteuk needs help and you then arranged disassembly, get out of here and beat each other's face against asphalt! - Both guys in the surprise turns to Donghae who now stand in scattering and then sit down again, covering his head with hands
-he has become worse? - Sungmin removed his hands from Heechul and throwing disgruntled look at him,come to bed with Leeteuk
- I do not know ...- Sungmin sat next to Donghae
-all will be well - said Sungmin,Heechul stood aloof from them, but when Donghae looked up at him, he did not dare to upset him and argue with Sungmin, so, too, nodded slightly.
The room went all guys who will in the dorm, ( not only Kyu and Ryowook)
The doctor will be any minute now - happily declared Yesung
-he was always so attentive as he could got sick in such day
-he can`t even remember what day today
all the guys frustrated sighed,
-oh, seems we must to call the producer- sadly said Donghae
-he will be sooooo delighted with this news!haha ..you want scolding? you confident?...oh my nervy system...ok, really it just Leeteuk`s headache
- What? what do you suggest that he in no matter what was up and gone? - Sungmin with irritation barked at Heechul
-oh, never mind, why you react at me with so much excite , I did not say anything except ..- Heechul was interrupted by Shindong, who scowled at him
-except that you will always find a reason for gloating-Heechul just for a moment pretended that thought, but then slowly nodded looking at Shindong, seeing as he facilitated sigh, he could not help but cracked with laughter
-hyung-you-idiot-Shindong smiled in disappointment
Soon,In the room again entered Yesung and Siwon, but this time with a doctor
-walk here, please - Siwon with all politeness, invited doctor in the room.Doctor quickly reached alleged patient
-you said he has fever?-Sungmin gave him his place and stand beside him. The doctor put his hand to his forehead and looked surprised at the guys
-yes .. yes ... he had delirium and then he fainted-Donghae stuttering
-you give him some pills?
all looked at each other and verified that no one gave him pills
-what .. what's wrong? - Siwon first asked anxiously while the doctor checks the pulse of leader
-what's wrong? - Sungmin asked, too, anxiously
-nothing .... he's just sleep- doctor discontentedly wrinkle his lips, and slowly rising toward the exit
-it's probably overfatigue, so just let the person sleep-doctor came out, all surprised again looked at each other, Siwon shrugged his shoulders and ran to conduct the doctor
-haha, wow, saw his face? he was not satisfied that the person not sick-Heechul broke the silence
-do you think people with fatigue, are not sick? - Sungmin again in irritated sniffed at him
- Wow you have such a great mood today! I would not want to upset you but be respectful .. and shut up - he smiled and left the room
-I think not need to go too far, - shindong also going to leave the room and giving him a urging look
-and I think that we should listen doctor`s advice,just give him a rest, in the evening he will be full of energy
-then we will not call a manager or producer?-Donghae asked curiously
-yes, for what? they do not help, just start cursing ahead of time,he will be better in the evening
*this time, when you start to wonder people who live with you for more time
Shindong hyung, truly responsible and rational person, one more reason why I'm proud of him*
We nodded in agreement.Shindong went out and Donghae hung in his mind for a minute .. then found that Sungmin is still sitting on the seat next to leader.
he walked over, sat down beside him and cleared his throat not decisively srart speaking
-hyung, you ...can please explain to me... you have some reason why you quarrel with Heechul-hyung ?
Sungmin looked up sharply on the question and stared at the younger.Donghae felt uncomfortable and avoiding his gaze
-Why? -sungmin said surprised
-what? -Donghae also surprised by the question
-you live in your own fantasy world, where all love each other
-No ... I ...
-Donghae ... do not think about it, what's the difference what kind of relationship I have with him,that mean he deserved it,are not you think so? you must not care about it-Sungmin smiled at Donghae who awkwardly shifted in place
-hyung, but for me it is important to ... Yes, I understand - seeing that Sungmin does not want to talk about it, he smiled weakly.
Sungmin hugged his shoulders, then ran his hand through Donghae`s hair gently
-Do not worry, nobody hurt you, I promise
*but you do* is what he thought in mind
-yes hyung, I believe you- * I believe you and what why my world slowly destroying*
-well-sungmin removed his hands from him and stand up- Come on, I'm surprised that he is not wake up because of our chatter
they left the room. Sungmin goes straight to his room when he noticed that Heechul sitting on the couch in the living room
heechul rolled his eyes on this action. Donghae sat next to him, he did not know whether to ask him anything about the conflict, but decided to remain silent.
-will watch cartoons with me?-Donghae is not expect, and looks at him in confusion,just because now he thought about serious things.
Heechul laughed and pushed him lightly on the forearm
- That what we never did before?-Heechul grinned - I do not propose to make love, just to watch cartoons
Donghae blushed and smiled nervously, avoiding his eyes
- Yes, of course I will
Heechul still with interest stared at a younger face, stating that he really blushed for his words
-Okay, baby, what cartoon?
-if there is new ... or
-just-not-Nemo- Heechul deceptively-strictly warned
-what? why are you so tight? - Heechul raised his eyebrows at him
-what?-Donghae blinked not understandingly, and blushed again when met Heechul`s eyes
-I mean ... haha ... oh ... why you're so pretty? - It seemed funny to him and he again misleadingly portrayed tenderness- be with me baby
Donghae choked on this words, and quickly seized on table first got a box with disc, gave it to Heechul.
Heechul took disc, keeping eyes on a guy- i mean sit near with me
Donghae feel himself so silly, but smile
-you are too cute to ignore this,all know it,and you,so it is not something new what i said you-Heechul put a disc, not paying attention on guy who sadly sigh *nothing special, you right, you can only say in same way as other, because i have not nothing special in your eyes *
-Okay, let's watch
probably my first experience terrible terrible terrible TTTTTT____TTTTTT011